Today, I went for tournament and we lost. 8-2 What is the difference between today's match and last Wednesday's match other than the opponent is that I did not do my best. I am tired. I am giving up while all my teammates are sprinting up and down to get the ball, get our opponent. I am seriously disappointed with myself. How i wish someone will slap me hard enough so maybe i can wake up. I want to prove to my coach and everyone that I can play floorball. I really want to do that. However, today I get into the court and I am lost. I let down my team and I let down my school. I want to go for tournament and bring back glory for the school. Even my coach says that I can play. Everyone is laughing at us. I have to try my best to come back to school after matches and say," We have won 10-0!" My next tournament is Monday. If we are going to lose every single matches without shame, I might as well die in the court. We are left with two more matches and we can win. I must learn from every mistake that I made. I try my very best and prepare for the worst. If I lose, I will repent and do better next time. If I win, then good for me. Good luck to me and SHAO QI! WAKE UP!